YEP!

So this is a picture of my hair about 3 weeks ago! You can visibly see my natural growth but I have since colored my hair in the front so it might blend better and I can keep up appearances that my hair grows outta my head that color. I have 2 and 1/4 inches of natural hair and 10+ inches of relaxed hair. This ratio is terrible lol. I'vebeen watching the hair growth vids on YouTube where ppl post pics of their hair growth journey's . I need to see someone go from hair as long as mine to even longer...I'm starting to think this is more difficult to do but I know that hair growth has nothing to do with how long your hair is already. I'm probably just being impatient HHHMMMPPPP!!!! OMG my bed is SOOOO messy in the back ooops!!! But I just need to focus on keeping my ends for now. I have stopped drinking everything but water and skin looks great! I hope my hair will too ya know once it grows in. But I've been slacking hard as heck here in VA eating icing and lasagna and foolishness all day I need to exercise because in 3 months it'll be spring break and I be damned if I can't wear a bikini without feeling weird or not being able to run or jump cuz my flab will move. I dont need that Im sooo young to be jiggling and ish!!!

Wants to go home and my home I mean ATL

Ned :/

Just blogged but I have more to say!!!

So the other day I was standing in the dining room and I was like ma who's that lady in that picture. Well her name was Indiana Estelle and she is my Grandmother's Grandmother! So after a lot of confusion she went and pulled out this stack of yellow legal pads with the family history on it SMHing!!! The farthest back we can go (as of now) is Indiana's mama Pinky (real name , govt, official name was Pinky!) she was Mataponi Indian and someother stuff. She was very light and had 3 husbands all of which she bought outta slavery!!! She was never a slave because she wasn't black, she was a midwife to lil white babies! So when her kid (Indiana) decides to go marry a black guy her mama tells her (I think you can do better, as in lighter) she doesn't and that's pretty much where our blackness starts (smh i know!!!)

Well in other research their was a woman named Sanada who was my grandma's aunt or something. Well when she was younger they were not allowed to speak to her downtown because she was passing. On one of the papers it said her mother was a prostitute and her father was from the white family of the Richmond News Leader Bryan Family. You talking prominent white folk thats as good as you get!!! I need to go downtown to the library of VA and look this all up...I'm not surprised though. Hooker+Rich White Man in 1890's Richmond= Passing family members and secrets for years. Now I find this out when everybody who knew her is dead! I will find out!!!

On to my grades: 2As, 2Bs, and a C... yo se no cs flotando pero fue muy dificil el proximo tiempo solamente as yo prometo

That C is a blessing though It was a big ol F at midterm!!!!!! See kids going to class cada dia and doing the lil stupid extra credit does help! Whew!

mi pelo...amigo mio

Im trying to stop obsessing over my hair but I cant...I have been obsesses since High School at that's a good 5 years of absolute insanity. If I hadn't mentioned before I am going natural and transitioning!!! I have not had a relaxer since the last week of August 2008 and that means 4 months so far and I have 2 inches of new growth. Im very pleased that with the average of 1/2 a month i have achieved 2 inches even with the stress and late nights and craziness that went on this school year. I'm glad I have found Mango Butter *thanks Lauren* because i have basically no breakage anymore if I make sure to use it daily. When I fall off...so do my ends. I have a few bra strap length pieces of hair LOL a few! and the rest is about 3 inches away. While at home I have rollerset my hair myself...ugh not so good. The relaxed hair came out great but I didnt pull the natural hair enough and it came out puffy. So next time I know what to do. I saw this tip on YouTube and it works: When rollersetting roll your hair upwards...its much easier to do your self. Yes the spray bottle is my BFF.

My mom is sitting here probably wondering what the heck i'm doing. She can't know about this blog or she would know everything and also the fact that their are no words that I will not say.

3 weeks left in the 8-0-4
Annette

thoughts of mine : in no particular order

• OK Spanish teacher we dont know one way or the other your family situation. So you don;t have to say my wife argh uh ummm ex-wife or that nonsense when referring to her. We dont know or care we just tryna pass. ANd today you call and say your wife is in labor. What wife the ex or a new one see now you got us curious. And who was that 17 year old boy you bought to class. Your kid, wife's kid, ex wifes kid, Im so confused so let's just get back to Espanol. THANKS!
• Boys you wonder and wonder why I dont have a boyfriend but then you realize I have no time for you. Hmmm you think you would put two and two together and figure out that I am a young hustla LOL and that if you just give me some space to get all my ish together I'll get around to you....I Promise. Jesus, School, Work, My Mama and Friends, then You. Lo Siento but your close to the bottom it's not personal really!
• Roomates ARGH! So you went home and got you a big ass grill hot plate thingy and you gonna leave it all greasy and ish on top of the STOVE!!! COME ON NOOOOOO!!!! Keep that n your room!!! ANd thanks for not turning off the heat last night because it was actually cold and y'all couldn't deny it could you *stank mama face* *rolls neck walks away*
• 8 days left at CAU this semester. THANK JESUS!!! No really if it wasn't for Jesus I wouldda been lost it killed everybody (no joke) I've been real pissed this year but I keep tryna think about the future and how pointless it's gonna look later. 2.5 years left...wow that's it im sooo excited. I cant wait to leave tho! College aint for everybody...I already knew I could live on my own, have a job, go to school, not get pregnant, or be on drugs, and all that jazz a long time ago. But whatevs its cool Countdown MAY 2011 !!!!!!!!!

NETTIE!!!

last few hours

so Thanksgiving came and went...FAST

Moe , Zahra and I went to breakfast thursday morning and it was emp-ty. No one to swipe lol so I just waltzed on in. They had food (real eggs) thank goodness. So I was going to Moe- Moe's cousins house bu she was talking about leavin at 11. But we ended up leavin @ 12. We got there like 12:45. We was there til 6:30 ...AHHH

Food was great!!! YES!!! They bout talked me to death tho. Moe tryna go sleep in the room, Breana tryna go talk on the phone LOL it all good tho. The backseat of my car was PILED with plates of food. Moe took the whole pan of mac and cheese and a pan of stuffing and the whole plate of ham *ahem* can we say HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE

So of course we had to go shopping on Friday. STONECREST!!!! Best mall NOT in Atlanta YAY!!! ME KK and Moe got there around 10 and it was piz-acked LOL. Black folk , white folk, everybody they brought the newborns and the grandmas. Shoutouts to the 90 yr lady sittin on Santa's Lap HAHAHAHAHAHA A MESS!!!

I bought 2 shirts and a pair of jeans for about $35 but those other two had the trunk filled to capacity with multiple pair of shoes and suits and nonsense!!! Ummm if anybody knows did JC penney change they sizing because it;s no way a size 7 is loose on me! Get it together and stop playin with folk making big girls think the where a 9 or 11 when they wear 15 and 17's LOL

WE had fun SATURDAY AND SUNDAY ON DECK!!!

I flat-ironed for the 1st time in a wk and a half. I see very little breakage and I dusted my ends. I need to do my color BAD!!! If im not gonna relax I need to do something

NEDY

Feel Like Blogging

Why must one person come in and slam every door on the way to their room? Ok ...you mad but the door (well these doors) didn't do it!

Why on the soaps do they call everybody in their phone before they call 911? Or better yet why do they just drive to the hospital? I have ambulance insurance why don't you, you multi-millionaire rich folk?

Why do teachers call you to class to hand you a piece of paper then to say ok see you after the holiday?

Why do other teacher infer that you will know how to do something when you have no knowledge of it because (ahem) you are the student?

Why did one person in particular hear that I had a fish in my dorm room and he went out and bought one and now he tryna find somebody to watch it cuz he wanna go home? You gotta make some sacrifices for the fish. What you gonna do with your kids???

Why I run outta ketchup at the end of the semester? Now I gotta get a whole new bottle.

Why the people I live with so loud...why do I live with people?

I have lots of questions ...I wonder why?
Nedy

straight up rant of yesterday and today!

ok if u gon tell me that i can be off dont text me asking me if i can come in??? it wasnt my idea that was u saying i aint need to be there...no biggie i wasnt doin nothin and yall have good internet and a tv and drinks(water soda etc lol) but next time it's not finna happen.

ok if u put a location on a flyer for a party or event make fuckin sure that shit is confirmed thru THE RIGHT ppl b4 u send me and my fellow interns out there. Homegirl came from Riverdale all the way out to 285 all up at the top for what??? NOTHING!!!! Ya'll left us ass out and that's on you! You told me to find the promo stuff...cool one phone call later I have gotten what i needed to do done but as far as the EXECs or whatever the BSness y'all decide to fake call yourselves...Priorities need to get in order. Ya'll wanna have a mag but u don't do nothin 4 it and jus wait in a month or two yall gon be hella mad when shit don't change. As a intern I'm learning from you but it feels like we al learning at the same time. I am 19!!!! WTF I have had sooo much job experience in my life in corporate and music and even a warehouse I have done it all!!! I KNOW SHIT TOO!!! Just because you have a degree or a whatever you can still learn something from me???? I do not do half ass shit and ya'll got me putting my name and face on BS. Hell NO!!!

If you say this this this and these are going to be on the test then they better be! Its nice of you to tell us whats going to be on the the test b4 hand but if u not gonna put that info on the test dont even bother. I am fully capable of learning all the material but I will neglect it if u say naw thats not on the test!! Still mad from yesterday and this is UGH!!! I better get an A like all the other tests!!!

*stank mama face*
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Vinyl Last Night

It's the RocHarder Magazinr Release Party Week so Wednesday was the 1st night I ventured out. Blue Flame (a strip club) was Monday and Via some fancy restaurant was Tuesday so Vinyl was more my speed and my buddy Haze was performing.

It's by Atlantic Station but why is it soo hard to get there. i have been here for almost two years and I am lost everyday. 14th st is closed indefinitely so i really dont be knowing where to go. Anyway lots of u-turns later. Me and Mel finally get there. The RocHarder Artists performances went really good. I have no idea what Ra-Ra was wearing but i'm not the A&R lol. Then this guy who goes by Gangsta Nerd performed. He looked like Lupe and kinda had the same flow, so he won't go anywhere but local (oh well sucks 4 him), but I really thought I was the original Gangster Nerd but i guess I have a partna! Then this guy named Yelawolf performed. WE got free shirts!!!! But he was hot( his music) and looked like Justin Bobby from the Hills (not hot) but he was white and southern and a rapper with a electric violinist, banjo, and a DJ(sooo random I know!!!) His fans really turned out for him. Culture shock set in at this point. They wanted to "mosh" or whatever it's basically pushing and abusing people for fun to the song. He pulled some girls up on stage too and one showed her boobs. It was too much. I listened to his stuff on myspace ya know without the loud speakers and crazy white folk and it's much better (whew).

Then Yung LA performed. Grand Hustle!!! So the plan was for all the staff to hold up our mags so I guess he could see them. I dunno but i do know my arm was getting tired. I'm glad he let his center part go and got him a lil fro-hawk lol. Big Kuntry Kane did a song. Then La came bac did Aint I blah blah. Sooo Mel and I still have mags in our hands and Jesse comes and takes them to hand to LA and Big Kuntry. LOLOLOL I was like this negro dun took my magazine lol but I did have to search around to find Mel another one. I can get one later.

Good Random Night
Let's see what 300 Atlanta has in store for tonight :) LOL

NED

Reading is Essential!!!

This blog could not wait , so I am sitting in class trying to get this out! As a child I was always reminded the "reading is essential" basically that means that without knowing how to read at a basic proficiency of English, you will be lost and confused in the world and everyone will think you are a fool.  So i wonder was I the only one that got this memo!!!

So it's the end of the semester and I have had numerous group presentations, most were ahhh but the one in my Spanish class today was ARGH!!!! Mel and I went 1st and there were no problems because we met twice, hang together all the time, and have a basic command of the English Language.  We talked openly with comprehension about Dia de los Muertos.  Then the mess began.  The next group spoke about Venezuela but they obviously copy and pasted the whole PowerPoint.  That one guy constantly mispronounces words.  Venezuela is really not that hard to say!!! Every group had at least one member that couldn't speak English.  Now I know why the teacher decided to have us speak in English instead of Spanish even though I speak Spanish just as well as English, but that's me :) 

To sum it up , it was terrible  horrible, and too much for a 9am class.  I'm pretty sure by the time you make it to the 5th grade reading aloud shouldn't be a problem anymore.  As I always say "who am i???" 

Let's go back to my hair journey.  I think I'm going to be wearing headbands a lot ( side note: a lot is 2 WORDS, why does no one know this!!!) I'm spending a lot more time moisturizing  so I can keep my ends.  AND my edges that is the goal!!! One day I'll take some pics but it's not now.  

More later considering I'm off today!!! How exciting for me but they don't get anything done.  There's nobody to transcribe their emails and to fill up their mini fridge!!1 Oh Well

Ned 

AHHH!

So I had a terrible nightmare about my presentation today! I dreamt that my teacher kept interrupting me and filling in the information because i was doing a bad job. I ran out of the room crying but came back to try to finish and couldn't keep it together. Then I woke up!

So I got a B+ on the presentation. I don't mind public speaking at all I would have enjoyed it more had it not been 9:25am or if I was speaking about something I cared about deeply. I mean I really do like Radio but how exciting can I make the Radio Act of 1912?

And she decided to give the half of the class that bothered to show up ,extra participation grade pts. Thank Goodness!!! Lord knows I don't participate enough!!! Whoo one weight lifted off.

On to my science class. I got back another test guess what I got a 75 that's the third 75 in a row! It could be worse he dropped that 60 i got on the 1st test. The Final is worth 20% and the lab 20% so with other stuff 60% of my grade is still up in the air And now we doing chemistry which I have always loved. Ionic and Covalent Bonding. Elements, electrons, and protons. OOOOH Valence electrons, Octet rule, and Compounds!!! Let's see how this goes.

DJ NED :)

Swag Surfin'

Well as you may or may not know...I am located in the A or hotlanta as unpopular people like to say. The music right now here is craaazy ahahaha. So or course since I have no CD player i was listenin to ya dirrrty J nicks on hot 1079 and around 9pm when i got in the car they had the best swag music mix goin on OMG it was the bizest!!!

Bust it wide open, bird walk, up thru there, some of the regulars along with about a chick, swag surfin, and anything else souljah boy or nonsense like that!!!

I wish as an intelligent individual that i didnt feel so compelled to start "dougieing" in my car but I can't help it. I love Atlanta!!! One that note:

My new fave show is Real Chance at Love

OMG its a MUST WATCH!!!

the boys on V103 described it best as real looks like a black Jesus and Chance looks like a knock off Ginuwine (LMAO!!! SO TRUE!!!)

its the funniest reality show to date. the girls a mess but its really about Real and Chance. Chance is sooo funny not on purpose. He constantly insults the girls who like him! I can't do it justice by describing it so just watch it!!!

In other other news: Vitamin Water needs to give my thirsty ass a contract!!! Im jus sayin

Dueces DJ NED lol

Bullshit!

So much bullshit from me, from people i kno, and poeple i dont (ahhhh)

So i say imma do something but i don't but its usually in regard to myself not other people but unfortunately others dont act that way.

If you say you gonna do something just do it...i wasnt finna ask you to go buy me China it's really not that hard. It makes me lose trust and respect for you when you cant do something simple.

I don't sell stuff! I work at a label as a intern/assistant. I type. I file. I get drinks. Go to QT for random things. I take messages. I stroke egos. I listen to y'all lil female problems. I tell you what not to wear. I stand on a cooler on top a speaker to put a Nappy Roots poster which I framed up. I do effin everything. I DO NOT SELL ADS, STUDIO TIME, OR ANY OTHER BS Y'ALL GIVE ME. YOU DON'T PAY ME SO NO MEANS NO!!!

To my next door roommate. I can hear you. I think you are not who you wanna pretend like you are. You tried to act like you all clean and high and mighty cuz you talking the LSAT's. Ummm i saw you frying chicken in the kitchen barefoot. That is not cool!!! And as far as the heat i can hear you! don't try to sneak out your room and change the temperature! I hate it!!!

More later!!!

HMMMMM :)

If i had seen this on any other day I would not have cared but today was th day I needed to see this! God works in mysterious ways!!!

The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Beers When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 Beers. A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.' The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. 'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car. The sand is everything else---the small stuff. 'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you. 'Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.Spend time with your children. Spend time with your parents. Visit with grandparents. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.' One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the Beer represented. The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.' The Beer just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem there's always room for a couple of Beers with a friend.' Please share this with someone you care about… I JUST DID!!!

MY HAIR

Well I've been educating myself on natural hair but I have had to resort to looking up mixed race and multiracial hair to find my hair type. I identify as a black person all of the time but when you have a biracial parent and you have the same hair as your black and native American grandmother, African American hair tutorials just don't help. The mulatto diaries on YouTube are the TRUTH! Most African Americans who go natural end up having to do the BIG CHOP but my natural hair and my relaxed hair are blending pretty well thank god so I'm not going that route.

It's been 2 1/2 mo.s since I had a perm and today I straightened my hair for the 1st time in a while because I had braids for the last 3.5 wks. Unfortunately I had to cut off a piece in the front that had somehow decided to lock ARGH. No detangler in the world was getting that aloose so it was real little but Imma just pretend its baby hair LOL for the next month or so. The rest of my hair was all over the place when i washed it. the bottom 6-7 inches on the sides dried straight from all the relaxers while the back was curly and all the new growth (2inches or so) was thick and dark showing that my hair aint really this color(darn!)

I'm looking forward to seeing if the natural hair is going to curl up over the next week or if my immaculate pressing skills will hold up!!! When it was air drying it looked soooo thick but then i pressed it and now its all limp again! UGH!!! I'm also looking forward to experimenting with color more now that I won't be relaxing! who knows what imma do

ned :)

Change

What a difference a year makes. A friend and I were discussing this topic a while back and I really wanted to expand on my personal change within the last year. October of 2007 was a difficult time in my life. I had just gotten settled into college but was still trying to hang on to remants of my friends from high school. We were all doing the same thing but all knowing that these friendships wouldnt last past the thanksgiving holidays. They didn't I still have my two best friends from home but thats about it. We all understand that while we are at different Universities that we cannot possibly be in on every aspect of each others lives, but when anything big happens they know that we all must tell each other. They are the first people i go find once I get home and if we have made it this far out of high school I'm pretty sure they will be some of my closest friends (god willing) for the rest of my life. Now on to the rest of folk....i dunno. I feel so incredibly fake over the schol breaks trying to fall back in to temporary friendships or fakeships as i call them with these folk. They are just looking for someone to hang out with for the meantime, but thats not what i'm tryna do. Either you are my friend or you are nobody. It's not everybody i'm mad at now if we were casual friends in high school then us just being casual friends now is cool, but if we were very close and i talked to you everyday and I know your whole life story and your mamas name and your dogs name and all of these random miscellaneous facts about you, then why must you pretend that we was just"cool" No we were not just cool you were my bestest best friend and you know that. I never said that to you but everybody knows I'm terribly bad with emotions. It was mutual and now all that friendshipiness effort is going down the drain. This can be salvaged but I don't want to! I know who has my back even when I do fall off and act sadity. It happens and some people stuck with me and I appreciate you all so much. But some other folk forgot where they came from (insert name here), and other fol forgot that I was the only one who stuck up for you when you was acting a fool (insert name here). It's cool. I wish I had known before though but I was too young to know :( I'm glad everything seems peachy in your facebook pics. I'm sad though deep down inside. Friendships are really hard and I don't have really any of the same friends from a year ago. I love my friends that stuck with me. And to all y'all that fell off won't be no nonsense and tomfoolery when I blow the fuck up one of these days. I know I will but you didn't so don't come asking me for no money or now you just wanna hang. And I will be sure to reference this blog when it comes to that!
WHew Feels Good to get that out.

Keeping It Real!!!

So this morning I got up to go to church. I went to New Birth more on that later. I was watch Baisden After Dark on TVone last night o my TV was still on that channel. I was surprised to hear a familiar voice in Pastor Lance Watson of St Paul's Baptist Church from my hometown of Richmond VA. I have been to his church a few times but had no idea that he was nationally syndicated. I was so excited to be able to hear him every Sunday at 8am from now on.

Well his message this morning I would soon figure out would be the message of the day. He was basically saying you shouldn't love anybody more than you love God or vice versa. Later on at New Birth Bishop Long had the same message in mind. He said that if somebody tells you that they are not complete without you, that you in turn have to let them go. They should be whole before they get to you because there is no way that you can go and do everything with them. He said if you do not love God there is no way you can love me.

This message resonated deep within me. Nobody was BS'in me he was keeping it real and it's the truth. I will look at all my relationships with people (all types) and see if these people are in my life for the right reasons. If you don't love the Lord, Jesus, Jehovah, or some other name he goes by I probably do not need to associate with you any longer.

He also went on to talk about forgiving all of the people that have hurt you in the past so you aren't carrying them around with you any longer. I need to forgive some people. So far I had just been trying to forget some folk but now I know that's not what I need to be doing. I believe that forgiveness will be the end of my hurting. I wish I could get up the courage to tell them to their face, but they probably don't even know how much they had hurt me in the 1st place.

One of the analogies he made was that if if you were to fall off of the balcony you would be hurt, so why when people think they fall in love they think they won't get hurt? Imma leave y'all with that.

I'm Blessed
Annette

Part One of CAU Adventures

Can I grocery shop

Why is it so damn hard to shop freely? I live in the hood still and I’m sure that’s part of the problem. I love my hood folk but goodness gracious ya’ll need a class in Grocery Shopping Etiquette. The syllabus goes as follows:
1. Your whole family does not need to come with you. If your baby daddy is around have him stay with the kids even if they all are not his.
2. Baskets should be driven like cars, they can do just as much damage. DO not leave your purse unattended. I will be tempted to rummage through it. I am also famous for taking your basket if it is in my way and move it to a completely different aisle. I have done this before. I am not playing.
3. Old Men. Stay away from me and my friends. And if you feel you need to ask are you in high school then it is a major problem. Save your words for a worthy candidate. She’s the one in the Similac aisle with 3 babies holding on to her and she’s either in her house shoes or a shower cap, you choose.
4. Checkout. Don’t act like you did not know you had to pay. Get your money, food stamps, credit out while you are idly waiting. Lets not put your stuff all up on mine either. I don’t need your Pork Shoulder all up on my bananas.
5. Old Folk. You do not get a free pass. I do not have to move for you. Please!

OMG Room 209, 1st classes, and Codi and Chill

I had every intention of having a great year and trust me I still will. But I love it here in New Res or officially Brawley Hall. LOL at the name change still. Nobody cares the RA's gave me the key and let me have at it. I met my roommates who are quite cool because they are seniors so they tryna get the hell up outta here so we al on the same page. This is where it gets interesting. I knew on the other side was going to be my friend Kendra but the other two rooms ended up unoccupied by the day before classes started. So she hangs with about 10 girls and now almost all of them live here. WTF!!! None of them have a key, and I do not answer the door or I will be stopping as of today unless you tell me you are coming beforehand. I like them but not enough to have them living here. Some didnt have housing and others had apartments that went wrong and others have rooms but want to be with their BFF's. Hope this works out ok. Kendra and I had a lengthy talk about it so I hope our prayers work!!!

!st day of classes today. How my English teacher couldn't find the room. I found it, CAU told me and they aint tell you. Not surprised but Nettie no likey excuses. LOL at KK being in my 1st class and Mel in my 2nd. I'm going to be seeing a lot of them this year. Hope this stays drama free!!! I love my Mass Media Class. I knew I was picking the right major. B.A. here I come

Codi is my goldfish's name it's short for codicioso which means greedy...lol and my other fish is named Chill cuz he just a chill dude.

AND EFF THIS ATL WEATHER!!!

AnnetteVivienne

I finally know what to expect!

Last year I left for school without knowing what to expect. And I experienced slight to no homesickness and high levels of black people aggression syndrome (this is when a black person no longer wishes to claim other black folk because they always actin' a fool). This year , my sophomore year, will be different for many reasons:
1. I will not be surprised by the amount of people you bring to help you move in. Auntie'nem and her kids and the grandbaby do all not need to come. If need be you can sent them pictures.
2. I will not be surprised by the lack of clothes the freshman girls will wear. If you feel comfortable letting your butt cheek rest on any old seat then that's your prerogative.
3. I will not be surprised by the bookstore. It should be called the book room. It's so little and that would be the reason they run out of books every semester. I am prepared to stand in lines early so I can get my essentials and maybe a free coupon at the register( they go quick ya'll). I am also prepared to have to transfer money from my savings acct. to cover the cost of a book and a half.
4. I will not be surprised by the caf. (Enough said)
5. I will not be surprised by party flyers. I believe all of the promoters from last year already know I do not party during the school year, so I hope they told this year's new flyer handeroutters. Do not accost me, I may just rip it up in front of your face. I'm dangerous!!!
6. I will not be surprised by the non-student car riderbyers. You will not yell at me or I will act like I'm reaching for my .22 do no play with me. Nor will I be surprised by the unneeded lyrics of your music. I've heard it all before. We all have volume controls in our car just because we don't use them like that doesn't mean we can't.

I know what to expect...I think!

I LOVE YOU DWADE!!!!!!!

I love Dwyane Wade!!! I love Basketball!!! SO lets backup and get a brief history of Dwade aka Flash. He went to school at Marquette and led his team and got drafted in the 2003 draft with LeBron and Melo. He ended up in Miami. He was Finals MVP in 2006 when the Heat won 4 straight games against the Dirk led Mavericks. (they were down 0-2 at first). He was amazing during those finals. He possesses ball handling skills that are unmatched and the ability and strength to drive the lane and finish at the rim at will. Oh and Big Diesel or Shaq didn't hurt either. Then came 2007 and 2008. He was injured. A shoulder injury and then a knee injury. I felt for him but I was mad that he wasn't taking the time to let himself heal. He eventually got the message in the end of 2008 and set his sights on USA Basketball. He got himself into shape and got back his confidence and is now the leader scorer on that team, even though he doesn't start. I would like to acknowledge his relentless steals and windmill dunks. I see you boy!!! Anyway don't disappoint me in October, I never lost faith in you!!! LOL

The Real story of the Church Hill Tire Slashers!!!

After some investigating and good ol neighborhood gossiping, I have unearthed the true story of the tire slashers. It was two little boys age 9 and 12 I believe. They may or may not live in a crack house on the street behind me, but that would make sense right? Well this is not the first time they have been causing trouble in the area. One of the neighbors said she had seen the younger boy walking across the street and he proceeded to pull his pants down and say "you can kiss this!" Such gall for a 3rd grader! what in the world is going on with these kids. The only trouble I was causing at nine was with my then 3 yr old cousin and we would hide around the house and scare our grandma, or maybe play with some barbies in the sink or something, but this is not the end of the story. Another day they came behind my neighbors mothers house (directly across from me) and they threw rocks at her house and like any black woman she came out and yelled at them. They called her a bitch and ran down the alley. (this is the best part) She got in the car and met him at the end of the alley and said "who's the bitch now!!!" They slashed tires in the middle of the day and then have the balls to say "how you doin ma'am" to the person whose car it was. I'll be damned. I don't hope those kids are in lockup somewhere but it just makes me wonder what happened to all the summer camps???

Whats Really Hood 37th Street!!!

So as of last night and in broad daylight today someone is going around my neighborhood slashing tires. At first it was just Escalades and the nicer stuff so I felt kind of safe with my 97 Ford which hasn't had a wash in atleast a year. So far I haven't been targeted but my neighbor directly across the street has. I've been bored or jealous before but I never had the audacity to destroy someone else's property because of it. People are so bold these days. I have every right to park my car in front of my house. Please DO NOT TOUCH!!!

A Day in the life,
AVD

Summer Recap...for all my loyal readers

I had every intention on returning 2 the life I left back in January but when I came home I wasn't that person anymore. I was focused on getting a job and I got one a bullshit ass Wella Manufacturing...yes a warehouse. My ol high yella ass was in there with the field niggas. They hated me at first but they soon realized I was from the hood too! Shoutout to CJ sorry u got fired dude u were quite cool and i hope u finally bought your recliner lol, to LiLi i hope u got that new job, Alex you are the most responsible 25 yr old i know, Von please stop drinking you are cooler sober, and to all of the boys with girlfriends who asked for my phone number...please know that having a wad of 20's does not mean you have money because that was probably your rent money anyway and it shows that you have no bank account or else you wouldnt have to carry it in your pocket. No lil boy even if you are twenty five will take me to mcdonalds for any reason...I own my own car and can take myself whenever i want to go...oh and if you do not own a car do not talk to me. I am not saying u need something with tinted windows or suicide doors but something that runs so big mama doesnt have to drop you off in the minivan everyday would be nice!!! Oh and smoking a NO...and my god if all u can afford is blacks or the individual cigarrettes from the store, you should not be smoking.

I will say I have learned that swag is something that will attack me easily and pull me in to its grips. The boys which I call regulars have somehow gotten under my skin. A cute accent (ques Tyra's Country Boy), a white tee, and a high school diploma is good enough. Please tell me about your quarterbacking heroics again. Thank you regular boys You will always have a place in my heart and so will your gorgeous arm muscles as you moved pallet jacks and broke down boxes (swoon) LMAO!!!

To the one boy havent spoken to all summer because you went off to college and changed and obviously forgot about all the stuff you had been saying for the past forever...in the words of Ashanti "you're gonna miss this chick right here, you're gonna miss this chick I swear!" Annette is officially moved on and will be looking up I can do much better and so can you with your current situation.

On to summer music...i have been jammin! Ashanti your CD surprised the hell outta me. You filled my Beyonce void! Oh and I have that good good but don't tell anybody :). Lloyd and Usher thank you for the lovely slow jams. Plies please stop!!! Neyo thank you! and Jeezy I wil call you Jeezy Hamilton because Put On is the ish right now!!!

This year I vow to be more open...I want to be the girl thats looks like shes having the time of her life because I should be that girl...And I promise to my college brothers I will be nicer to you because I don't wanna hafta go to white men.

On my way to Summa Cum Laude,
Annette Vivienne :)
thanks Angelina Jolie for naming yo baby after me!!!

Priorities

I have them...they are simple , don't make a fool out of myself and graduate from college in 2011. Other people obviously didn't get the memo. Yeah It was CC'd to all of you around 2003 when we started high school. I caught on and stopped my meaninglessness activities. I dint cut everything out because that would be crazy but I drastically cut back on non enriching activities. I loved the Gossip Girl book series but honestly I have nothing to gain from reading it or watching the show so that had to go. Waiting around for new episodes of Who Wants to be a Millionaire back when Regis hosted yeah it was fun to watch but Im not going to pretend I didn't have homework. It wasn't as serious then as it is now. I basically only have enough time to watch GMA for 10 mins in the morning a little of the View and I make time for NBA games at night. I don't have the time or desire to party or CHILL like everybody says they do??? I have time to get my stuff together and thats it. One day I will have the time...I will be vacationing in the Azores and watching Lifetime movies during the week for no apparent reason. It'll be great then...but they key word is then.
Currently Prioritizing,
Annette

I hate technology!

I have a cell phone and a laptop like everyone else but honestly i hate them. I have to remember my phone, turn it off during church and class, and to charge it so it doesnt die. I hate having to check my email and my facebook and my FAFSA results because if you don't something could change because nobody mails you anything anymore. I hate the feeling of always being accesible and always wanting others to be accesisble. I have my phone on at all time because at any moment anyone from home could call me with serious info. I remember the days when I stayed with my grandmother and my mother was at work and when she left at 7:30 I didn't hear from her again until she came back at 5. I wasn't trying to call her because I didn't need her. DO we even really NEED the people we constantly call text and email or is it jus convienent and fun? At my grandparents house phone calls were only taken for my grandfathers business , during family drama, or after 7 or 8> Everyone knew not to call at dinner because nobody was going to answer or you were going to get cussed out by Mrs.Dyson. There were no emails and definitely no texts! Now that I look back on it I miss the "simple" lifestyle we had. People wrote letters and sent cards...I cant remember the last time I got a card, not just an envelope with some money in it. I cant stop using these things because I would have no idea what is going on. I get my news and the info from my friends from all this usage. I guess I need to just find myself a happy medium because I'm not happy anymore. I think I'm just going to go outside and play!
Nettie

Gay?

If I told you I was gay what would you do? If i said I had 2 Dads would you come over still? In a perfect world nothing should change but in reality it does. In my 8am speech class the whole class agreed that being Gay was wrong. I was appalled and kept my mouth shut. I am not gay but I could have been and there would be nothing any of us could do about it, no church or counseling can "fix" it! I love gay people! They are all very nice I think because they understand whats its like to be hurt. They have a different perspective on things and what they do in their own homes is their business as what I do or don't do is mine. So next time anyone decides they say they hate the homosexual community I would like to know "do you hate Mr and Ms. Jay from ANTM or Sparkle who does your hair at salon cuz you know he be hooking you up?" Thanks
Shout out to the gays I love y'all,
Nettie

Yes I've Been Burned but I Call it A LESSON LEARNED!

Lesson Learned is a song off of Alicia Keys' new CD. Track 6, Go listen 2 it! It's basically talking about how even though you have been hurt before you have to use it as a lesson for the future. I'm not really in that situation anymore but I always think about it when I listen to the song. I've been very angry at a few people and maybe 1 and a half of them are still in my life. I've been childish and not spoken to people, not answered the phone, and treated them differently when we were around other people. I feel that deep inside of me some part of me still wants to act like this but It causes more stress on you than the other person. I don't care if you don't talk to me , so why would I think that you would??? A few of these people cross my mind during the day and instead of thinking about how much I hated you that one time at the thing at Keisha'nem house I think about how much fun we used to have just doing nothing. I want to let them know that they will always mean a lot to me and that when I'm 66 waiting around for that social security check that I'm never gonna get, I'm gonna remember you! Alicia Keys sure does bring out built up stuff LOL

Now only if I could tell you this to your face,
Nettie

Needing Space!

I feel like I'm going back to those horrible teen angst years where i just wanted to be alone and mopey but I craved to be around people and to be included. I really need an island right about now...My island has a regulation basketball court, never flat balls, Nike huaraches in size 8 , the book Their eyes were watching God, Unlimited episodes of Family Guy, The Boondocks, and the Office, Cheesecake, and lots of ice to munch on :)
Since I can't have this I am going to spend my next month at school doing what I want to do regardless of people. If I wanna wear sneakers with my skirt don't say damn thing to me. And no I'm not going to the party cuz I'll be thinking about my next move to become what I want to be, and a better Annette!

Dueces :)

HMMMMM

http://moneycentral.msn.com/investor/calcs/n_expect/main.asp

LIFE EXPECTANCY

I should live to be 99 or older especially if i lose 10 lbs as recommended
what about u???

I LOVE LUPE

Why can't there be more boys like Lupe Fiasco...

Here are a few of my fave lupe lines from the last 2 albums

"Bacon wouldn't take him, he had the pigs on the payroll"

"I'm American mentally, with Japanese tendencies with Norwiegan sensiblities, so stay out the vicinity of..."

"Brazil...for real..."

"If some niggas do kil you in the next few minutes, just remember my nigga it's a heaven for a G"

"One hand throw the peace up the other hand throwing WE without the E up"

"Not tall enough to dunk, so we dont" Gotta love it!

"I'm tryna get public so I can get te private"

"I was about 3 when the eyes went"

"You can't be punk from projects"

"We go back like a set of Ataris"

Go listen 2 him he's great

Its always the worst at the end

I have an overwhelming feeling to quit and this isnt the 1st time I've felt like this. Is it just me or does everybody wanna quit when they come to the end. I have 35 days left (including weekends) of my 1st year of college. I feel as if I am being pushed to the end and I cant take it anymore. Everything annoys me, I even got into a little trouble with a teacher like im still in grade school. The work is piling up and I dont even know where to start. I want someone to feel my anxiety but everyone else seems do full of shit as they run around going out to eat and partying as if they dont have a damn thing to do. I spend a lot of time preparing for the next day and making innumerable lists of things "TO-DO". I've been calling my mother more than ever just to talk about things that are going on back at home that dont even pertain to me. My only solace is in Lupe Fiasco's two CD's FOOD AND LIQUOR and THE COOL which without I would lose my mind on some real. I wish I had a speaker system so I could blast it but all I have is my $500 laptop that was paid for by a scholarship ...so until I can get up out this bitch I dont know what Im gonna do probably blog!


So from the land where they barely understand but they nod to my beats ,
Nettie

No Mama

I had a great mom for 18yrs and 8 1/2 months but I didn't have her anymore when I left for college. I could call her and she would visit but it felt as if I didn't have a mama anymore. I woke myself up, dreadfully every morning. I had to guess if I looked a Hot Mess or not because there was no one to tell me otherwise. I had to scrounge for food and quarters for laundry because at home having to pay for something is like a foreign word. I miss having my mama here all the time. I call her every time I learn something new in class or I see a particularly interesting episode of Oprah or her hair is a mess and she looks like one of her dogs again.

I have 38 days left until I go back home for the summer and maybe I can get my mama back!

Nettie

Does It really all just "fall into place"?

A lot of times I hear people say "oh don't worry hunny, it'll all fall into place" and "in due time" and "when it's in God's plans". I'm sure these are all true but are they viable options for some subjects like true love or your purpose in life. These are things you can't just sit around and wait for them to happen. They need lots of time and energy and an overall commitment to their accomplishment.
As I sat in my bed I wondered what would happen if you never told the person you TRULY loved that you loved them with everything you had. You spent countless hours dropping hints, and telling your closest confidants but you couldn't bring yourself to tell them. This is of course the type of person who does not infer things, at all, but you love them anyway.
Is fate going to step in for you and nudge them just a little, or will a perfect opportunity arise where you can tell them your true feelings? Has this opportunity already come and you missed it?
I often wonder is this the case of true love at a point in a person's life where you both know that right now is not the time to be together. Things happen, years pass and you end up in a seemingly happy long term relationship, until that one day they come across your mind. What do you do? Honestly I have no idea, and I think most people don t either sadly.
Much unrequited love,
Nettie :)

So Much To Learn

I have a lot of time 2 ponder things nothing good ever comes on tv these days ...i read a lot of things and i come across some interesting ones that i would like 2 share. Some state is proposing a law that would require all surgeries to be videotaped and recorded. Why didnt we think of this sooner? We track every other move of everybody but not the hours or moments that could end someones life, all surgeries are potentially dangerous. All the malpractice going on ends up being taken lightly even in an old episode of Seinfeld where he and Kramer went to view a procedure and dropped a junior mint into the 'hole' lol it was great comedy but make u wonder how long has this stuff been happening? I just hope that law gets passed 4 sooooo many reasons

Im taking a very interesting class this semester called the ancient period and we discuss all of the ancient works such as pedagogy of the oppressed by Friere and Black Athena by Bernal but this week we went over the oldest book in the WORLD by Ptahhotep who had all of these amazing things to say about human beings and interactions such as:

DO not scheme against people. God will punish accordingly.
Eating is under the discretion of God. It is a fool who complains about it.
Follow your heart as long as you live.
and
he who is ruled by his appetite belongs to the enemy.

As i sat in class amazed by the truths of these simple sentences i thought i should definitely be doing some things differently in my life...

Look this up theres soooo much more
Dueces, Nettie :)

Virgin Blog YAY!

I've been hearing about these "Blogs" but I was unsure...y i dunno but here I am YAY!!! Today is Easter and the previous week has been leading up to this. Im not tryna compare myself 2 Jesus because I can never be compared to his selfless act of giving his life for others, but I think this week I have found the beginnings of who I want to become. I have to get it together b4 I tell yall but just know I think I've figured out the basics...YES! But as of right now I want to talk about Friendship...I read a statistic that 25% of Americans have no true confidants (so sad i kno) and most people have 1 or 2 close friends. I have a different situation especially now that I am in college in Atlanta and went to school in VA (2 up 2 down!) SO i have friends here that I talk 2 about my college issues and my friends at home that I talk to about home issues and high school and stuff. But It hit me 2day when I discovered a couple of problems with my friends and they all could be resolved with a lil talking. COMMUNICATION PEOPLE we spend more time thinking about what we finna say to you than actually doing it and way more time telling Keisha 'nem about how much you be acting funny than saying that ish 2 your face. So thats the new me for 2day and if you get called out be glad I told you instead of waiting til you heard it from Keisha 'nem. LMAO

Currently Im listening to :
Mya Case of the Ex, Movin On, and How You Gonna Tell Me

And I keep that Selena on constant rotation!

Dueces, Nettie :)