I would love to be in love!

I've been in true mutual ( I'm pretty sure) love once in my life. I fell out of 'romantic" love with him but I still love him immensely. I see that this year with my social counterparts that everyone is in a relationship or with this boy or that girl or someone. I am not. I don't even want to waste my time with someone that I don't love and I don't know it that is a good or bad thing.

My first love and all the other boys I really liked, we started off as friends first. I wasn't even checkin' for them at all and next thing I knew I was waist deep in like/lust/or love. This hasn't been happening lately. I find that boys have been noticing me but I was paying any attention to them at all. They are already in the like or some other L stage with me and I'm not there because I don't know you.

I have an exclusivity issue going on. I want to be the first to know and to find out something. If its a new song. I wanna know it first and blast it and no I'm not sharing it with you. I'm the same way with me. I want to notice you first. To watch you. To Facebook stalk you just a little and then hope and pray that you were doing the same thing to me, so when we finally come together we have already established the principle of like and we can move from there.

I think forming like is hard. If I don't like you I probably never will but if I like you there is a strong possibility that I can love you. I was just over on the "forums" (the hair forums) and one girl wrote about how she things shes in love. She is and she has been for months and all the members knew it. It was so sweet to read and to think back when you used to be in love. How that used to feel. I miss it and I would love to be in love. I guess my time will come hopefully sooner than later. I going to have to like somebody first and that might take a while.

Not In Love
Lust
or Like
Annette

Third Year

I guess there is just something about this third year of school. High School and College couldn't be more different but this third year has more similarities than I can explain. I think back to my junior year of high school. I was 16. I remember that my class seemed to get closer and closer each day and by the time it was June of 2007 we were super sad that it was all over. I think junior year is the period were you realize that your days are numbered and that you might as well go on 'head and make friends with the kids in your classes. I mean who else understands better than the same people that sat in that 2.5 hour class too! I didn't expect this to happen again but I'm glad it did. I'm glad that even if you have friends and good ones at that there is a good feeling when you make new friends. Friends you can wave to from your window and walk with on the way to class. People that you can make sure you take the same classes with next semester. I was extra mad earlier this year about the multitude of group projects but honestly without them I would still be hanging with my old friends who don't seem to have too much time for me. I hope this wasn't too cheesy but this is how I feel right now. I'll probably get over it soon but we all know when things are good they're REAL good.