Life is really great sometimes

I graduated college!

I got a new job!

I moved!

I made new friends!

I really honestly believe the last year wasn't as great just so I could be set up to have such great things happen to me now. School was a drag. I took a lot of classes that I felt were pointless. I'm excited to start law school and do something of interest to me. I'm not going to be naive and say that I'm never going to do something I don't want to do ever agin, because that is not life. I really think that most everything I do these days is because I want to.

I really care about others and I let it affect me, even strangers. I'm glad I moved out of that house of aint-shit people. I cannot stand to watch people don nothing with their lives. I can't imagine doing nothing all day. Even if I don't leave the house, trust me, I'm doing something from home. I'm being productive. Facebooking is not productive.

I have 2 months until school starts and I think I should have a great summer.

Over It!

I used to be obsessed with my natural hair. Now that's it's about to be 2 years, I could care less. I'm tired of protecting it. I don't want to be gentle. I want to color it. I want to cut it, curl it, straighten it. Fuck it. I'm doing whatever I want to it. I cannot keep up to unrealistic standard in the natural hair community. I want to wear my hair straight as much as I wear it curly. I flat iron when it's damp. (SHOCKER!) I never wear my bonnet, I let my boo get entirely too rough with my delicate strands. I don't care. It's versatile. It's cool. It's no longer an obsession.

Ummm yeah

That is Wallpaper covering the air conditioner at my mama's house!!!!

She still has a wall unit SMH!

She also has a converter box on a 13 inch TV in the Dining Room.

She uses chair covers so she can store stuff under most of the chairs.

Most of the lights in the ceiling fans do not work.

Y'all live in houses like this too. Don't play.

I know better but...

So I have had two run-ins with hood (urban) black males in Atlanta. I usually don't even bother but I know a lot of guys that act like they are standing on the block all day or hustling in the streets but in reality they went to college, have jobs, take care of their parents and siblings, and would rather play Xbox than think about taking an illegal substance.

These men are rare. They will scare you with their hood-like activities. They drive drunk. They hang with real OG's and they will cuss until the ends of the Earth. The two I have encounter have both been sweeties but after a while I realize it's not my thing. I cannot listen to Gucci and Boosie. I don't know if you are quoting lines from a song by them or disrespecting me. They always have a million people hitting them up. They are usually the only person in their circle who is reliable. They still find time to hit you up all the time. They seemingly never have to work. They are enigmas.

Sometimes I can hang with a hood man for a minute but then when it comes to intimate encounters is usually when I am running for the door. Worst kissers ever. Activities tend to be short-lived and rough. Well rough to me. If you like rough then this is for you! I think that I usually feel so disconnected from them because to them and in their crew it's about how many women you are with, it's not about the specific girl. They take no time to figure out what you like. It's like a checklist of things they heard you should do. I would like to sneak this in that I saw the most beautiful penis I ever saw in my life yesterday, the sad thing is I knew he had no idea what to do with it. He is the first man I've ever seen pull out a magnum who actually needed it.

I'll be dating better in 2011.

Fah Coloured Gullls

That's what it sounds like when you live in Atlanta. I went to see it this weekend. So... SPOILER ALERT!

I guess I knew people go through mess but GOT DAMN. I guess if you've never been abused you ain't been through nothing. I swear to all mighty God that I did not know men would talk to a girl all nice and sweet for 2 weeks, beg and plead to take her out to dinner and have a great time with her. Kiss her all sweet, and beg and plead all cute for a second date, then rape her. LAWD! I had no idea. You can rape somebody for free. You did all this wooing, for why? That was so upsetting to me. Now this movie got me out here side-eyeing every man that I've ever went out with. I can thankfully say every time I've said no (and meant it) that he (whoever he was) listened to me. I'm glad I say this because I usually think if someone is being all nice and seemingly genuine that they aren't faking it. I'm not a good liar. I'm going to be more careful because I am a tease and so far I've been really lucky.

I did not know negroes was throwing babies out of windows. If I was going to cry at any point in the movie this was the scene. Crystal should have known better than to let that fancy ass car pull up in front her house. She wasn't thinking. Poor children. They are honestly better off dead. It's a shame some people can procreate really. She should have left him so long ago.. I was so pleased to see Gilda tell her that she needed to take some responsibility in their deaths. Children need to be protected. If daddy is an ass, mama must protect them and vice versa. She did not do her part. I know I have more backbone than that. I don't give a damn you went to war. I work everyday and raise yo kids. Negro please! I have no sympathy for that sorry ass man talmbout "why wont you marry me?" She at least had enough sense there. When she was trying to clean the sidewalk I was done! I couldn't even imagine. I understand why she didn't want to live.

So Girls are still getting abortions in low down dirty places. Coming from a never been pregnant person who's an adult now and nobody would side-eye me if I turned up pregnant, nor would it ruin my life, yet I still don't want no babies. As a teenager as scared as I would have been. My ass would have went straight to my mama. She always knows what to do. She would have been pissed and I can guarantee I would have been slapped its better than getting a non-sterilized abortion. I said I didn't want THIS baby, not babies ever?! There are so many options, official abortions at a clinic, adoptions, and keeping the baby. I can't tell you what I would have chosen. I just can't believe girls are still doing that.

I loved the crazy mama. I feel a lot of people have crazy parents like that. I loved Thandie's character too. I know a plethora of chicks just like that. And I hope I look as amazing as Phylicia Rashad for the rest of my time on earth!.

Homosexuality in the Church

I live in Atlanta. Homosexuality is as common as a drive-by shooting. Open homosexuality that is. I'm from VA. There are probably as many gay there. They just aren't out because a lot of the time you can't be. I'm so proud of Atlanta for the acceptingness of the LGBT community. Its the straight up bible belt here! Why cant ole mid-Atlantic Virginia get it together?

Anyway I've started going to a new church that is full, lleno, packed, straight up crowded with gays and just people in general. They congratulated a lesbian couple on their marriage this morning. Everybody was so excited for them. I didn't see one ounce of judgement. I also noticed that the demo tends to be 20-40ish. I always felt that at my old church in RVa that it was the older folk that kept us from being progressive. Eventually one day we will be the old folk and hopefully we can change along with the youngins.

I'm glad it seems like being gay is no longer looked at as something all about sex. That's why so many people have problems with it. I don;t know anybody who has a problem with love. Homosexuality is no longer a classified mental illness. I'm glad gays in Atlanta have a home to worship in because New Birth is NOT that place. Oh and the manly lesbians stay out in full force, you know I have a slightly lesbian spot for all of y'all. LOL.

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