Priorities

I have them...they are simple , don't make a fool out of myself and graduate from college in 2011. Other people obviously didn't get the memo. Yeah It was CC'd to all of you around 2003 when we started high school. I caught on and stopped my meaninglessness activities. I dint cut everything out because that would be crazy but I drastically cut back on non enriching activities. I loved the Gossip Girl book series but honestly I have nothing to gain from reading it or watching the show so that had to go. Waiting around for new episodes of Who Wants to be a Millionaire back when Regis hosted yeah it was fun to watch but Im not going to pretend I didn't have homework. It wasn't as serious then as it is now. I basically only have enough time to watch GMA for 10 mins in the morning a little of the View and I make time for NBA games at night. I don't have the time or desire to party or CHILL like everybody says they do??? I have time to get my stuff together and thats it. One day I will have the time...I will be vacationing in the Azores and watching Lifetime movies during the week for no apparent reason. It'll be great then...but they key word is then.
Currently Prioritizing,
Annette

I hate technology!

I have a cell phone and a laptop like everyone else but honestly i hate them. I have to remember my phone, turn it off during church and class, and to charge it so it doesnt die. I hate having to check my email and my facebook and my FAFSA results because if you don't something could change because nobody mails you anything anymore. I hate the feeling of always being accesible and always wanting others to be accesisble. I have my phone on at all time because at any moment anyone from home could call me with serious info. I remember the days when I stayed with my grandmother and my mother was at work and when she left at 7:30 I didn't hear from her again until she came back at 5. I wasn't trying to call her because I didn't need her. DO we even really NEED the people we constantly call text and email or is it jus convienent and fun? At my grandparents house phone calls were only taken for my grandfathers business , during family drama, or after 7 or 8> Everyone knew not to call at dinner because nobody was going to answer or you were going to get cussed out by Mrs.Dyson. There were no emails and definitely no texts! Now that I look back on it I miss the "simple" lifestyle we had. People wrote letters and sent cards...I cant remember the last time I got a card, not just an envelope with some money in it. I cant stop using these things because I would have no idea what is going on. I get my news and the info from my friends from all this usage. I guess I need to just find myself a happy medium because I'm not happy anymore. I think I'm just going to go outside and play!
Nettie

Gay?

If I told you I was gay what would you do? If i said I had 2 Dads would you come over still? In a perfect world nothing should change but in reality it does. In my 8am speech class the whole class agreed that being Gay was wrong. I was appalled and kept my mouth shut. I am not gay but I could have been and there would be nothing any of us could do about it, no church or counseling can "fix" it! I love gay people! They are all very nice I think because they understand whats its like to be hurt. They have a different perspective on things and what they do in their own homes is their business as what I do or don't do is mine. So next time anyone decides they say they hate the homosexual community I would like to know "do you hate Mr and Ms. Jay from ANTM or Sparkle who does your hair at salon cuz you know he be hooking you up?" Thanks
Shout out to the gays I love y'all,
Nettie

Yes I've Been Burned but I Call it A LESSON LEARNED!

Lesson Learned is a song off of Alicia Keys' new CD. Track 6, Go listen 2 it! It's basically talking about how even though you have been hurt before you have to use it as a lesson for the future. I'm not really in that situation anymore but I always think about it when I listen to the song. I've been very angry at a few people and maybe 1 and a half of them are still in my life. I've been childish and not spoken to people, not answered the phone, and treated them differently when we were around other people. I feel that deep inside of me some part of me still wants to act like this but It causes more stress on you than the other person. I don't care if you don't talk to me , so why would I think that you would??? A few of these people cross my mind during the day and instead of thinking about how much I hated you that one time at the thing at Keisha'nem house I think about how much fun we used to have just doing nothing. I want to let them know that they will always mean a lot to me and that when I'm 66 waiting around for that social security check that I'm never gonna get, I'm gonna remember you! Alicia Keys sure does bring out built up stuff LOL

Now only if I could tell you this to your face,
Nettie

Needing Space!

I feel like I'm going back to those horrible teen angst years where i just wanted to be alone and mopey but I craved to be around people and to be included. I really need an island right about now...My island has a regulation basketball court, never flat balls, Nike huaraches in size 8 , the book Their eyes were watching God, Unlimited episodes of Family Guy, The Boondocks, and the Office, Cheesecake, and lots of ice to munch on :)
Since I can't have this I am going to spend my next month at school doing what I want to do regardless of people. If I wanna wear sneakers with my skirt don't say damn thing to me. And no I'm not going to the party cuz I'll be thinking about my next move to become what I want to be, and a better Annette!

Dueces :)

HMMMMM

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LIFE EXPECTANCY

I should live to be 99 or older especially if i lose 10 lbs as recommended
what about u???

I LOVE LUPE

Why can't there be more boys like Lupe Fiasco...

Here are a few of my fave lupe lines from the last 2 albums

"Bacon wouldn't take him, he had the pigs on the payroll"

"I'm American mentally, with Japanese tendencies with Norwiegan sensiblities, so stay out the vicinity of..."

"Brazil...for real..."

"If some niggas do kil you in the next few minutes, just remember my nigga it's a heaven for a G"

"One hand throw the peace up the other hand throwing WE without the E up"

"Not tall enough to dunk, so we dont" Gotta love it!

"I'm tryna get public so I can get te private"

"I was about 3 when the eyes went"

"You can't be punk from projects"

"We go back like a set of Ataris"

Go listen 2 him he's great

Its always the worst at the end

I have an overwhelming feeling to quit and this isnt the 1st time I've felt like this. Is it just me or does everybody wanna quit when they come to the end. I have 35 days left (including weekends) of my 1st year of college. I feel as if I am being pushed to the end and I cant take it anymore. Everything annoys me, I even got into a little trouble with a teacher like im still in grade school. The work is piling up and I dont even know where to start. I want someone to feel my anxiety but everyone else seems do full of shit as they run around going out to eat and partying as if they dont have a damn thing to do. I spend a lot of time preparing for the next day and making innumerable lists of things "TO-DO". I've been calling my mother more than ever just to talk about things that are going on back at home that dont even pertain to me. My only solace is in Lupe Fiasco's two CD's FOOD AND LIQUOR and THE COOL which without I would lose my mind on some real. I wish I had a speaker system so I could blast it but all I have is my $500 laptop that was paid for by a scholarship ...so until I can get up out this bitch I dont know what Im gonna do probably blog!


So from the land where they barely understand but they nod to my beats ,
Nettie

No Mama

I had a great mom for 18yrs and 8 1/2 months but I didn't have her anymore when I left for college. I could call her and she would visit but it felt as if I didn't have a mama anymore. I woke myself up, dreadfully every morning. I had to guess if I looked a Hot Mess or not because there was no one to tell me otherwise. I had to scrounge for food and quarters for laundry because at home having to pay for something is like a foreign word. I miss having my mama here all the time. I call her every time I learn something new in class or I see a particularly interesting episode of Oprah or her hair is a mess and she looks like one of her dogs again.

I have 38 days left until I go back home for the summer and maybe I can get my mama back!

Nettie