Its always the worst at the end

I have an overwhelming feeling to quit and this isnt the 1st time I've felt like this. Is it just me or does everybody wanna quit when they come to the end. I have 35 days left (including weekends) of my 1st year of college. I feel as if I am being pushed to the end and I cant take it anymore. Everything annoys me, I even got into a little trouble with a teacher like im still in grade school. The work is piling up and I dont even know where to start. I want someone to feel my anxiety but everyone else seems do full of shit as they run around going out to eat and partying as if they dont have a damn thing to do. I spend a lot of time preparing for the next day and making innumerable lists of things "TO-DO". I've been calling my mother more than ever just to talk about things that are going on back at home that dont even pertain to me. My only solace is in Lupe Fiasco's two CD's FOOD AND LIQUOR and THE COOL which without I would lose my mind on some real. I wish I had a speaker system so I could blast it but all I have is my $500 laptop that was paid for by a scholarship ...so until I can get up out this bitch I dont know what Im gonna do probably blog!


So from the land where they barely understand but they nod to my beats ,
Nettie